It really hit me how much he was carrying inside, hiding it all from everyone. The shame he must have felt and the battles he was fighting on his own—it’s heartbreaking to think about. He was probably self-medicating and coping in ways he thought would protect the people he loved from his pain.
Recently, Twitch’s wife, Allison, has faced backlash from both fans and some of Twitch’s own family for sharing details about his struggles. For example, a relative, Darielle—Twitch’s cousin—accused Allison of making family members sign NDAs just to attend his funeral.
This has only added to the growing controversy surrounding Twitch’s death. What started as a private tragedy has turned into a very public storm.
As most people know, Twitch was found in a hotel room after taking his own life. Since then, questions have swirled about what really happened. Allison has begun to open up about her experiences and what she’s learned since his passing. But her honesty has sparked even more questions.
In an interview with People, Allison shared an emotional moment she experienced while preparing for Twitch’s funeral. She and a close friend were going through his belongings when they found shoeboxes tucked away in his closet. Inside were mushrooms, pills, and other substances she didn’t recognize.
“It was such a triggering moment for me,” she said. “I had no idea these things were even in the house. It was scary to realize there was so much going on that I didn’t know about. It really shook me.”
Allison said she had always believed she and Twitch had an open and honest relationship, even when it came to his use of substances. She knew he would often unwind in their guest house at night, after the kids were asleep, smoking or having a drink. She didn’t see it as a problem at the time—just his way of decompressing.
But looking back, she noticed a shift in his behavior before his death. Twitch became more withdrawn, skipped showers, and smoked more often, both in the morning and at night. When she asked him about it, he called it a “low period” but didn’t elaborate much.
After his passing, Allison turned to his journals, hoping to understand what he was going through. What she found revealed a side of him she’d never fully known.
“He was fighting so many internal battles,” she said. “He thought self-medicating would help him carry the weight on his own. He loved everyone so much, and he didn’t want anyone else to feel his pain.”
In those journals, Twitch also hinted at childhood trauma—specifically, sexual abuse by a male figure. Allison believes that this unresolved trauma deeply affected him throughout his life, shaping his struggles in ways he never fully expressed.
Reading his journals and revisiting the books he had highlighted gave Allison some clarity, even if it was painful. “It’s helped me understand where he was emotionally and mentally, even though it breaks my heart to know he went through so much alone,” she said.
She shared, “It left me with so much empathy for him and a deep sadness for all the pain he was holding inside.” She added that, after his death, she now speaks about his struggles and the aftermath, hoping to help at least one person who’s been quietly struggling like he was.
In the interview, she admitted, “It was really hard to make sense of everything through certain conversations, even with friends, and things that were said. Going through his journals, it hit me how much he went through as a child and never faced. It’s heartbreaking that he never opened up to anyone or tried to work through it. I really hope others in similar situations will step out of the shadows and realize they’re going to be okay.”
Looking back, Allison believes Twitch was torn between being “the extroverted Twitch”—the lively public figure everyone loved—and “the introverted Stephen,” the man who wanted desperately to be the perfect husband and father to their three kids.
She sees now how these two sides of him were increasingly at odds with each other. She reflected, “When I’d think about my husband, I’d think, ‘I love how amazing Twitch is as a performer.’ But when he came home, he could just be Stephen. I was with him for so long, and that’s just who he was, balancing both sides. It was beautiful that he could be both.”
Allison also shared that, on the morning before he went missing, Twitch had dropped Wesley off at school. As the last person in the family to see him alive, she recalled his final words to her: “I wish I could be your Superman.”
She added that Wesley still attends the same school, and realizing those last words now, after the fact, has been especially tough for a teenager. Still, she said, Wesley has handled it with more strength than she ever expected. “We’ve taken steps to really support her, to make sure she feels heard and understood,” she explained. “I think she sees those words as both beautiful and painful. It’s a struggle she’ll always carry, but I know she can see it from both sides.”
Understandably, the deeply personal things Allison has shared about Twitch have sparked reactions. While some believe she has every right to share her story and grieve in her own way, others—including Twitch’s close friends and family—are expressing disbelief.
Twitch’s cousin, Darielle, even claimed that Allison had required the family to sign non-disclosure agreements (NDAs) to attend his funeral. She wrote, “This woman made me and his actual family sign an NDA just to go to the funeral. She’s trying to tarnish his legacy, keeping the kids from the Boss family, and lying about my cousin. Absolutely not!”
Darielle also defended Twitch, saying, “He wasn’t an addict. He smoked weed and was trying to quit, but he wasn’t some junkie.”
Twitch’s family has previously accused Allison of keeping the children away from them. His brother, Dre, even stated that since Twitch’s passing, his side of the family has been denied access to the children.
He recently took to Instagram to share that his mother and grandparents were still processing Twitch’s death, but felt disrespected and shut out of family matters. Without directly naming their mother, Dre mentioned that his late brother’s three children had noticeably distant relationships with their grandmother and the extended family.
In his post, he addressed Allison:
“We’ve sensed a deep lack of respect and understanding towards our mother, who is also grieving the loss of her son. Her sorrow only grows as she’s being excluded from family matters she has every right to be involved in.
If you truly care about our family, you would understand the pain felt by his grandparents, who are mourning the loss of their first grandchild. Keeping them from accessing those precious memories in their later years is just wrong.
This isn’t about blaming anyone but about trying to create an environment where we can all grieve and heal together. I hope we can move past this and come together to honor my brother’s memory, reflecting the love, respect, and unity he valued so much.”
Allison’s interview and book have reportedly caused a lot of frustration among the family. Twitch’s close friends have shared similar feelings. Courtney Anne Platt, a close friend, called the interview “the most tacky, classless, opportunistic act” she had ever seen. She posted an emotional message to Allison, saying:
“I was there when you two met. I saw the engagement, stood by you on your wedding day, and was there when he died. I was by your side because your husband was my family. This, though, is by far the worst thing I’ve seen. We all had to sign NDAs to attend his funeral—even his own mother, whom you’ve treated so badly. And don’t forget, you wouldn’t even have had a husband if it wasn’t for her.”
Courtney’s words were strong, and it’s clear she wasn’t alone in her sentiments, as Twitch’s brothers reposted her message in agreement. Fitness trainer Kelly Gibson also voiced her concerns, saying:
“This is just sad. He’s gone, why tarnish his memory? I supported you moving on, but writing this book wasn’t worth destroying his name.”
In response, Allison wrote:
“I’ll always love you. I just want to make sure people feel safe asking for help.”
And if you think that’s all, Allison has a memoir coming out on February 4th, titled This Far, where she plans to go even deeper into her personal experiences.
If the interview stirred this much reaction, imagine how her book will be received. One excerpt reveals that when she couldn’t find Twitch, she thought he might have gone to rehab because of his marijuana use. She also mentions finding a letter he had written two weeks earlier, vowing to cut back on weed.
The book’s release is sure to generate even more conversation.
While many are critical of her actions, some are defending Allison, saying she has every right to be open about Twitch’s struggles to help others who might be going through similar experiences.
What do you think? Did she have the right to share such personal details, or has she crossed a line and is just trying to profit from his story?
